Let's talk about Redemption, what is it exactly?
There is a song I like to listen to called "Redeemed" by Big Daddy Weave, he says in it; "So I'll shake off these heavy chains, Wipe away every stain, now I'm not who I used to be." I really feel that way, I am trusting you, my reader, with stories of my life so that we can all get stronger together, not continually tear each other apart. I have been REDEEMED, I am shaking off my chains of hate, anger, frustration, gossip, and judging. I am not who I used to be and will never be again. I am brand new and have been REDEEMED.
I can still be very judgemental at times and am truly working on that, but I used to be alot worse. I would judge other mothers' on their parenting skills, and I would complain to one mother about another, then talk to the other mother and complain about the first one. I hated myself when I was driving away from their home. I would get home angry and frustrated with myself. Who was I to say who a good mother was, I mean I was telling my children to be nice to all, that no one deserved to be judged, yet I was doing it sometimes on a weekly basis. What a HYPOCRITE I was. Well, it came down the pipe quite a few years ago, I couldn't keep going on like this, how horrible I felt, what if the mothers' found out? How would I feel? What were they saying about me? Not someplace I wanted to be for sure, then the feeling would stay with me the whole time I was with the other mothers'.
The last time I actually put a parent down for their skills, as I was driving home, I said, "this is it, no more, please Lord, take the want from gossip out of my mind so that I stand with these mother's and not against them."
It worked. I ended a few friendships over it, I promised myself to try to never do it again and I have tried very hard to uphold that promise to myself and God ever since. It is hard, JUDGING people comes very naturally to me and I used to really enjoy being right about what I thought and how it played out, but I can't do that in good CONSCIENCE anymore. I am here to support, respect, help, rejoice, cry, and love these women, and I have been trying to do this for quite a few years now.
So, I would like to take this time to say that I am SORRY, sorry to the mom's I didn't give the support, respect, my shoulder, and love that I should have. I am sorry that you trusted me with your feelings, hurst and fears and I turned it into some sort of gossip game that at times I felt like the ring leader.
I would like to feel REDEEMED by you mother's and say that if you need me, from now on I am there, to love, honour and cherish all that I can learn from you, and hopefully you can learn a little from me too.
If you see yourself in my mirror, please remember that at times we will all feel like failures as MOM'S, and let's stand together, let's see how we can help each other bring up the best generation of kind, loving, and respectful children we can, one family at a time.
Ciao Bella's, until next time.
There is a song I like to listen to called "Redeemed" by Big Daddy Weave, he says in it; "So I'll shake off these heavy chains, Wipe away every stain, now I'm not who I used to be." I really feel that way, I am trusting you, my reader, with stories of my life so that we can all get stronger together, not continually tear each other apart. I have been REDEEMED, I am shaking off my chains of hate, anger, frustration, gossip, and judging. I am not who I used to be and will never be again. I am brand new and have been REDEEMED.
I can still be very judgemental at times and am truly working on that, but I used to be alot worse. I would judge other mothers' on their parenting skills, and I would complain to one mother about another, then talk to the other mother and complain about the first one. I hated myself when I was driving away from their home. I would get home angry and frustrated with myself. Who was I to say who a good mother was, I mean I was telling my children to be nice to all, that no one deserved to be judged, yet I was doing it sometimes on a weekly basis. What a HYPOCRITE I was. Well, it came down the pipe quite a few years ago, I couldn't keep going on like this, how horrible I felt, what if the mothers' found out? How would I feel? What were they saying about me? Not someplace I wanted to be for sure, then the feeling would stay with me the whole time I was with the other mothers'.
The last time I actually put a parent down for their skills, as I was driving home, I said, "this is it, no more, please Lord, take the want from gossip out of my mind so that I stand with these mother's and not against them."
It worked. I ended a few friendships over it, I promised myself to try to never do it again and I have tried very hard to uphold that promise to myself and God ever since. It is hard, JUDGING people comes very naturally to me and I used to really enjoy being right about what I thought and how it played out, but I can't do that in good CONSCIENCE anymore. I am here to support, respect, help, rejoice, cry, and love these women, and I have been trying to do this for quite a few years now.
So, I would like to take this time to say that I am SORRY, sorry to the mom's I didn't give the support, respect, my shoulder, and love that I should have. I am sorry that you trusted me with your feelings, hurst and fears and I turned it into some sort of gossip game that at times I felt like the ring leader.
I would like to feel REDEEMED by you mother's and say that if you need me, from now on I am there, to love, honour and cherish all that I can learn from you, and hopefully you can learn a little from me too.
If you see yourself in my mirror, please remember that at times we will all feel like failures as MOM'S, and let's stand together, let's see how we can help each other bring up the best generation of kind, loving, and respectful children we can, one family at a time.
Ciao Bella's, until next time.